In the temple of healing

I came across this record of a personal healing meditation  whilst i was filing this mornings words of wisdom and thought I'd share it with  you, just for the pleasure of it. May you gain something from reading this which pleases you too.

Meditation 28^th March 2011 3pm ish

I am unable to recall exactly what I was doing/ saying before this but I called upon St Germaine to help me as is appropriate for me at this time. I had felt that it was time to begin working with the Ascended Masters with the groups as well as myself. I was looking for the Ascended Masters book to get more info on St Germaine with regards to “how can he help me (specifics/ his area of expertise) I was instructed to just “work with him” instead of looking up the information.

This is what happened when I found myself sitting down and surrendering to the vibration of the God source that breaths me and manifests me “ in his image”.

I called St Germaine to be present with me, and said

“May the Violet flame burn within me and around me”

“May the Three fold flame of Transfiguring Love burn within and around me?”

“May the Blue flame of the Maharic shield burn within and around me shielding me so that I may know which is the energy that defines me and that which is other than?” 

 I “saw” immense light around me and felt it flowing and expanding within me as “I filled with light”

Then I saw a path before me, I walked in countryside to steps leading down to a beach of golden white sand. At the shore side I walked up a rope ladder onto a majestic white boat assisted by my guide. The boat seemed to be made of white gold with inclusions of small gems twinkling as the light shone from them.

(prompting to remember details  -What was the sea like?)

Blue/turquoise large waves. I felt the sea breeze on my face, my hair being blown into swirling strands around my head. Then calm seas as the boat came into port. Disembarked with the assistance of my guide who took my right hand and gently led me towards large ornate wooden doors which before me opened as if to greet me with an open loving embrace; welcoming me into the sanctuary of this sacred place (it reminded me of the halls of the Nephalim!). I entered the large hall. I was being led by an invisible presence to the right of the hall to the door leading to the “mentors” chamber but then changed direction as I was shown the doorway to the left. On seeing the “temple” door, I went towards that door feeling the excitement within me building. This was why I had come here ….

There was a  large white door before me with golden handle and the letter appearing upon it TEMPLE

I eased the golden handle down and gentle pushed the door open. A room of white marble with a large pool of water was before me. As if i were mesmerised by an unseen force, I walked down the white marble steps which led down into the clear waters and completely submerged myself, I did this three times. With every submergence the clear waters became darker ; the word “baptism” came after the first submergence then "cleansing "after the next and finally  "deeper cleansing".

I was guided in my hypnotic state up the marble steps out of the pool and down steps into a pool of red water. I felt more energised by my submergence into this pool and the words Love filled my mind. Leaving this pool by steps on the opposite end I descended into a pool of blue water then I was led towards another pool of clear water. I saw before me a circle of pools. I had completed the circle and I was back at the first pool of clear water. I re-entered the pool which remained crystal clear as I enjoyed the bliss of this pool.

On leaving the pool of crystal clear water I was guided towards a large throne surrounded by shimmering light and the image of Isis. I heard the word Isis. I felt her presence was the image before me. Isis invited me to sit upon her thrown in recognition of the work I had completed. I felt a little bewilderment as I wasn’t sure exactly what the work had been but I  felt a sense of completeness. I accepted the invitation and sat on the thrown of Isis. I felt the vibration of her feminine power, gentle wisdom, gentle tenderness, kindness yet the power of all of this was within love. I was aware of communication between us but not what was said. From here I was led to another door of white, the doorway to BLISS. The doorway opened before me and I walked through the doorway into BLISS and here I remained for a time until I regained my awareness of  the room I am sat in now. My consciousness returned to being present in my beautiful home, here in Carbis Bay overlooking the beautiful sea before me.

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Working with Goddess Kali 2am -3.15am

I have called  on the help of Hindu Goddess Kali several times in my life when I have needed clarity and help to move things forward. "Things" being a situation that I have created in my life, either by default or design, in which I have become stuck and I am feeling dizzy and frustrated by going around in circles unable to find the way out!

Kali is the Goddess of the ending of cycles, the death and transformation energy that lets go of the old and brings in the new. She is a "no nonsense" forthright goddess and is a great ally when you have made up your mind to let go of what no longer serves your highest good, when the old patterns of your behaviour keep you locked in struggle, when you cannot find you way out of the maze and need to be shown the exit!

I have a great respect for her and appreciate  her "no nonsense", focused and unwavering determination to assist me in "getting the job done". I trust Kali's instruction to do what is required of me to let go of the old cycle and step into the next one with confidence.Kali is challenging but I have learnt to trust her wisdom and guidance. This morning was no exception!

One of the old patterns which I had learnt, probably in childhood or maybe over previous life times was a fear of being ridiculed for expressing love, allowing the love within my heart (chakra) to guide me, to trust my inner wise and loving teacher (intuition)

After deleting several old programs and downloading new ones (visualisations in meditation), these words flowed from within me, from a place of deep inner peace and harmony.

(I am) Dancing to the joy of love in all areas of my life (and with it brings great wealth in all its forms, including prosperity, happiness, abundance, money etc. etc. etc.)

Then came …………

When love is offered, I need to take a step towards it and say

 “Yes, I accept love. I allow it and approve of it. Thank-you for the love you offer. I now choose to add my love to the love you offer by offering my love to you. Will you take a step towards me, likewise?”

And each step we take brings us closer until we merge; we occupy the same space, within love. So take my hand, and let us walk side by side, connected by love, within love, the love that flows within me, through me, to you and back again from you, around us in a loving embrace.

I decided to act on the instruction to “put this on the Website, blog page and On Angel Wing page (Facebook) as a note. (Ref the above) however, when typing all I’d written in preparation, I wondered if the following was to be included too!

We all come to each other for a reason. We all have a purpose for each other; we serve each other with this purpose. We receive and give to and from each other with this purpose. This is the dance of life. And the thread that runs between all of this is our connection to the Divine source of the Universe that is the source of all that is that flows through each of us, within us and around us.  

I now align my free will with the Dance of life through and within the joy of love, of light and Divine Wisdom. The music is the sound of creation,  the music of the spheres, the choir is the angels and all is conducted by the orchestra Master, God the Universe, the Divine source of all that is and ever will be.

 I am a dancer and I dance for the joy of dancing, for the love of music and the beauty of the body movement within the dance of life to the music of love.

Call on Kali any time you need help in letting go of old habits, and need assistance with determination to step confidently into new empowering ones..... any time of day, she is there..... call her name thre times .... and wait .....she will always respond but be warned, she's not one to hang around if your commitment to change is missing!

For change to happen you need to let go of the old and embrace the new

Kali Kali Kali please hear my call.......

Thank you , Goddess Kali for your loving help this morning. 

© 2011 Carole Ann Powell

14/06/2001

 

It's all about love

The following poem was inspired by a very special man, my many years of self  healing, personal transformation and the writing from that journey. As I started to experience life from a different perspective, one of love, I began to realise that I, like everyone else, was born into this world with the gift of love and the power of transformation that love is. In childhood I learnt to fear that gift, mistrust love and forget about its power. I believe we all have to some degree!! I, like many humans have,  fell into the habitual behaviour  of associating  love with fear, abuse, and  disrespect. I wanted love and to feel safe so I tried very hard to please the adults around me and as a child, I reasoned that if that didn't happen.... ie they were still angry with me or unhappy, I had to try harder to make them happy. I knew that when they were happy I felt love. I couldn't make them happy all the time. I didn't get what I wanted which was for them to be happy so that  I felt safe and that  they  loved me.  I knew they loved me ..... but why didn't it feel like it? Why did I have to hide my authentic loving, powerful self in order to feel safe?

 I learnt to beleive that it was because  "I wasn't good enough" or worthy enough. That's no fault of my parents, teachers relatives or other adults in my life.  They did thier best from their own perceptions of love and responsibility etc...........from what they had been taught to beleive in their childhood....and so it was no fault of my parents that I found the environment of my childhood to be a hostile one. The "hostility" was a reflection of the habit of fear (habitual/ automatic fear based behaviour).....fear of love. Fear of love because of the many misconceptions about what love is. In truth there is nothing about love to fear. In truth love is a very high, powerful vibration, and its that high vibration that has some quaking with fear .... because they have learnt to vibrate at the lower vibration of fear! Healing and transformation takes place when we raise our vibration, and when that happens you open up to love, and you begin to create from the powerful and high vibration of love..... and that brings many positive changes in all areas of our lives.

 

A Thousand Fold

I have felt the intensity of your love

Of the love you hold within you

I have felt that same love within me

Hiding behind your fear behaviour

May have served you in the hostile

Environment of childhood

Where love was masked by fear 

But the only hostile environment

You are in now

Is of your own creation

From the mask you still wear 

Remove your mask of fear

It no longer serves you

Be within the environment of love

The love that you hold within you 

Loosen your hold and let the love
Flow from within you

And the environment of love

That you created

Will replenish your love

A thousand fold

The Answer is

The question’s why

And the answer is always

“Because I said so”

I was told what I felt, what to do, what to think, what to believe, how to be

When I asked why,

the answer was

“Because I said so”

I was told I had to do this or that even when it hurt me, or else…………….

I rarely asked why,

 I just did it

Because they said so

I was told I’d made a mistake and the price I paid, hurt me

I asked for help

I was told I was stupid, I would never learn

I didn’t ask why

I was told I had to love them, no matter what

I wondered why it was expected

I believed because they said so

I became one of them

I was an adult, just like them

It was expected,

Because they said so

They had been mistaken, I had paid the price

I changed my mind, I changed my ways, and I heard my answer

 I am not them, I am myself

I make mistakes, I learn from them, I do things differently

I now decide what I feel, what I think, what to do, what to be

I choose how, where, and when and with whom

If  I ask myself the question why

The answer may be because I like to and yes

 Because I say so

© 2011 Carole Ann Powell

Less Fear and more Love

The funny thing about fear is that is uses more energy than it does to be in love!

It takes more energy to struggle, fight, resist, more effort to defend yourself with clenched fists against all the expression of fear from others that your own fear has attracted to you. Fear also creates lack in your life!

Food for thought if "money is just energy" is that why I seem to waste more money when I'm in fear of not having enough or I am ungrateful for what I do have? By default, I am decreasing my abundance of joy, health, wealth, love, laughter and creating more of the lack of it simply by my own lack of love and gratitude..... Choose to fear less and love more creates more abundance in your life!

Being in love increases and expands energy, life becomes more effortless, and one feels relaxed, calm, healthy, trusting. Life becomes easier and oh the joy of attracting more of that towards you. Bliss!

In order to be in a healthy loving relationship we need to be with-in love with our own unique self-first. No, this is not being selfish. This is receiving love from yourself, from the limitless unconditional love of the “universal source of all that is”, or “God source” or “the Divine” that life force energy that breathes you, that lives you and all life on earth. When you allow your love to be, you become better at receiving love so that you can give to others and likewise allow yourself to receive love from them. This is being in love and there's nothing selfish about allowing love to flow through one’s self, within oneself and then allowing it to flow out to the unique self of others and to all life.

But like any healthy relationship, we need to get to know our own unique self. Accept our self, be kind and compassionate with our self.... be our own perfect lover, best friend, loving parent, guardian angel.... treating ourselves with respect and be honest with our self. This is being true to you; that is having faith in you. And when you can be full of faith in you, you can be faithful to others.

Be honest with your own self, what do you REALLY like to do?
How would you REALLY like to be, to think, to feel?
Are you in touch with your emotions? Can you allow to be expressed then let them go or do you hold on to them tightly, for fear of letting go? Do you allow the expression of ALL you emotions, or do you try to hide them, or suppress them, or deny them the freedom of expression. Why? Is that being honest with your self? Do you value honesty in a relationship? Be your own perfect lover.
Do you treat yourself as you wish others to treat you and treat others accordingly?

I know I didn't for a long time.

As I got to know myself, I realised that I was still treating  myself as others had when I was too young to stand up for myself, I victimised myself, bullied myself.... and sometimes managed to rescue myself! Always looking for what I did “wrong” but never praising myself for what I “right”. All this under the disguise of fear of not being good enough, worthy enough! I was never satisfied with myself, my efforts, my looks etc. etc. . . . so I tried even harder! Does that sound like someone you know?

I had built wall of fear around myself for protection against a world that left me confused and feeling very unsafe. My real self….. the part of me that knew all about love and its power to create an abundant wonderful life, was so lost out of view I forgot about having that wisdom, that power within me. Then I awoke from my dream of  illusion and the self-deceit which was fuelled by fear and confusion and I started to knock down that wall….

A wall built out of fear doesn't protect. It makes you defensive, its isolates you from love, from laughter from being the real authentic wonderful YOU. It gives you a place to hide away from life and from freedom. Fear limits, restricts and holds you back from experiencing the joy, limitlessness, the freedom the excitement that love brings with its vibration. Fear will imprison you in illusion and deceit.

It isn't love that hurts at the end of a relationship but the loss and lack of love you experience.... you've entered into fear.... and fear hurts! Fear of being loved again, fear of being on your own, fear of not being good enough, and that fear will keep hurting.

We experience the emotion of grief at the loss of the love you once shared with another person. This is a natural human response.

Allowing yourself to remain connected to the love within you, acknowledge the love you still experience with others and look at the positives.... review what you learnt about your own self from that relationship, what worked for you and what didn't, if it was abusive see that you are now free to work towards allowing a more healthy loving relationship with someone else. You are now free to be in love with someone more compatible, learn about you, love life and likewise, they are free to be with someone they are more compatible with. That is a bigger act of love than holding onto someone out of fear. Being held in a loving embraces feels safer than being held with fear.

We have the freedom to decide on which thought to focus on, what emotion to feel in any moment, how to experience life, what to experience in life.... that is how powerful we are..... Limitless potential just waiting to happen. Creation just waiting to manifest!

Fear limits, restricts, it excludes; it has tight boundaries, keeps us lost in the suffering of our past fears. We have a sense of being disempowered, of hopelessness. We are victimising our own unique self with our own bullying and wait to be saved...... fearful that we won't be!!!

Love is inclusive , limitless, expansive all encompassing. It moves us forward; it offers solutions, support compassion, trust, and vitality. It is safe, the power of love is protective it enlightens..... We “light up" when we're in love. We have "a spring in our step"; we're "floating on cloud nine".

It all sounds very positive to me. Yes please to more of that..... And all i have to do is allow myself to love my own unique self, to allow my own self to love life, to be grateful, to appreciate, to enjoy being with-in love and express this to others, and likewise allow the self of others to express likewise to me?

Well I'd say it would be worth thinking about at the very least, wouldn't you?

Fear less and love more

with much love and many blessings
© Carole Ann Powell
26/01/11

Put it away in a safe place

Have you ever put something in such a safe place that you couldn’t remember where you had put it?

 I found a picture I brought back from India the other day. I’d completely forgotten I had it. It’s no longer in the “safe place” it’s on my wall so I can see it. It’s a reminder of how my life has changed and that dreams really do come true when I allow them to. But the story of India will need to wait for another posting.

In a different kind of safe place…………………………………….

I came into this life born with innocence and my light shining. I trusted that my needs would be met and I grew with the faith that my parents loved me. This was my innocence, unconditional love, trust and belief.

I heard somewhere that we choose our family before we are born. I chose my family well! I now understand that my family’s role wasn’t just to love, nurture me and take care of me but to teach me about being human, about fear, contrasts, illusion of the ego and so much more. And so I learnt to fear my light shining, allowing my joy and experience the innocence of happiness. The human experience includes lack and the effect that has on my perceptions of “reality”, my expectations of life. I learnt how to blame external forces and grew to believe that I was powerless, unable to change my life. I practiced this belief until it became an unconscious automatic way of being. I later discovered that it was just a “bad habit”.

I began to listen to a different voice than the external “teachers” around me. I began to listen to a wise loving voice within me, yet it seemed to be outside of me too. Yeah, I had wondered if I had lost the plot too! But this thing I later discovered to be intuition guided me. I discovered that when I acted on this feeling, this silent voice within me, a knowing within me, that “good things” happened. I felt happy. I felt safe. It all was effortless, that is without struggle. My life and my perceptions were changing.  

It is my dream to use the journals I have been writing to create a book which I hope will be of benefit to others in some way. The love I was searching for outside of me, was right there within me all the time, right there with my inner light which had become hidden.

I’d placed my feelings of love and kindness in a safe place within me a long time ago…. In such a safe place I’d forgotten where it was. . I do that a lot! Oh but the joy of finding that safe place again and the treasures contained there.

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